Friday, September 13, 2002

 

Trying to throw a wrench in the machine...

Sometimes I'm convinced that my brain is trying to introduce hurdles to any of my quests. Let's make a list of, Things not to do when trying to make time with a woman:

• Do not invite your ex, whom you still have fantasies about, to the same function where you intend to make time with other cuties.
• Do not try and spare ex's feelings by not shamelessly flirting with object of attention.
• Do not imagine a rivalry with non-existent others who would also find said person attractive if only life wasn't in their way.
• Do not avoid her the whole time hoping that your brain waves will somehow make her notice you.
• Do not let her leave without making plans to get together with you.

You're good enough, you're cute enough, and, doggone it, you don't have any of those icky boy vibes...

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Hmm...I'm kind of digging this font. I had planned on reworking this page template when I got a chance but maybe it's okay.

There's a woman that I know - a friend/acquaintance depending on whether you determine by length or depth - that I'm probably going to see tonight at a group gathering. Now, I'd like very much to get something on with her but I haven't the foggiest notion how to jump from our established relationship to one that might involve much more casual sex. But that's probably because I'm shy. And if I just came out and told her that I want to jump her bones, she'd laugh it off as one of those not-so-serious propositions that people try to ignore (for the relationship).

Now I do have concerns about stepping up this relationship. There's the whole circle of mutual friends who might be disrupted by inter-friend coupling. Then there's the whole long-distance issue that comes with the 200+ miles between her home and my home. But that could be a good thing too. All I know is that, early in our relationship, we kidded with the idea about me being her boy-toy and I really think that needs to be reexamined.

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And so it begins...

This is going to be a journal about all those uncensored thoughts that never see the light of day. Everyone has stuff they wouldn't say in public, things they don't want their friends to know, things they would be embarassed to have broadcast to the world - that's pretty much my day-to-day life right there. But, in the words of Tom Cruise's character in Risky Business, "Sometimes you just gotta say, 'What the fuck'..." So here goes me trying to be as candid as can be. Oh boy...

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